Self Harm

Anonymous asked if my cutting was conscious or unconscious.

Also in relation to self harm nvsblyxstn18 asked; 

I'm curious to know. Do you remember the very first time you cut? What set that first time in motion, why cutting? What was going through your mind? What did it feel like? I'm hoping you can expand on this, more than just a few answers. Take me (us) back to that time as if we were there too.

Typically, it's an unconscious action. I don't realise I'm doing it until it's done. My partner has often suggested to do something other than cutting myself but I don't even think about it, it just happens, almost as natural as breathing.

See my blog here about self harm where someone else also asked about it.